I have decided that I am indecisive.
I thank you all for your many and varied advice. I haven't requested HCG or an ultrasound, but I may. My center is on the smallish side, and I think they would fit me in next week if I'm wigging out.
The big answer I want of course, is whether there is a heartbeat. That's really the only thing that would make me feel a whole lot better.
Not to be cliche, but it will be what it will be. It's out of my hands. I'm trying really hard to keep myself busy and not to think about it.
I'm taking some small comfort in the fact that I get waves of nausea/gagginess. Clearly, my boobs still think I'm pregnant. My nose thinks I'm pregnant too. Funny thing, I got a whiff of the PIO shot (no lie) and was repulsed. Oh, and I think I've had round ligament pain (although I know that's usually later in pregnancy), like a few times when I've stood up quickly or when I've sneezed, I've had sharp pains on either side. None of these mean there's a developing baby in there, but it's something.
This is such a hard place to be in.
Friday, November 6, 2009
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I know it's a hard place. I'm hoping you make it through this and can finally move on to the GOOD place! Sending all kinds of positive thoughts your way.
go with you gut...you'll know when you really want to do something, and until then i think its great to be indecisive. no need to make a decision now.
best of luck in the coming days!
Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way...
Honey....I KNOW what you mean. Here's the deal...you can get a beta but it still won't tell you anything. You will still obsess. You can get an ultrasound but you may or may not see a heartbeat this early. Either way, you will obsess. So, do you want to freak out now and later? Or just later and later and later? Big help, huh? I feel your pain! Since you asked, I would have it all done. Plus progesterone levels. Have them check weekly until you stay above their minimum!!
Hang in there, you ARE doing really well and its a difficult place to be in but if your boobs and nose are still telling you that you are pregnant then thats a good thing!!
Thinking good thoughts for you. Hang in!
Waiting always sucks. I agree. Just focus on the nausea (giggle) and think of what it represents. ;)
I can't imagine how tough it must be to wait this out. Empty sacs suck worse than anything else. You're taught that good HCG levels and nice pg symptoms are good signs. All that really matters is that little heartbeat!
Just popping in to wish you TONS of luck and to say I am praying for you feverishly. I know that no matter what you decide to do for reassurance, it is the big day of the heartbeat that your heart longs to get over with. NO matter what, realize that your beta numbers this time around have been STELLAR. Something IS different this time and you should just keep hope hope hope! CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy!!!!! No matter what tests you decide to do, not to do, just enjoy it every day no matter what! I am praying for a strong heart beat for you!
Just get in as early as you can for the heartbeat confirmation. My RE likes to wait until I think 7.5 weeks, but the h/b can usually be seen earlier - ask them what they think!
So hopeful for you - this time seems different, somehow!
I just stumbled upon your blog. I am your 100th follower!! I wish you luck with this pregnancy....sending good thoughts your way.
Sending loads of love and wishes for a joyous resolution to this damn waiting.
I had round ligament pain this early too! I think it happens with us after all of the IVF stuff and all of the extra meds we are on...but I do recall feeling it around that time when I stood up too fast or sneezed. Okay, I'm just plain excited for you. When is your u/s to look for a hb?
I think you are going an awesome job of coping under the circumstances. Sending lots of positive thoughts and hoping the days fly by until you see that heartbeat!!
That's funny, I got those sharp pains really early on too. I think all your symptoms are good signs.
Here's my two cents: If I were you, I'd wait for the big u/s where you should be able to hear the heartbeat. Anything else you do will just mess with your head and probably won't bring you peace of mind. My clinic only did the first two betas and then I waited to go in at 6 weeks 3 days. It was hard to wait but I'm glad I didn't have extra stress along the way. I HATE waiting for test results and overanalze them.
Do what will bring you peace.
Praying for you, girl. I know the waiting is hard.
You are very much in my thoughts sweetie. I am sending everything positive I have your way, and that's a LOT of positive.
*hugs*
Yes, yes, a thousand times, YES. This *is* such a hard place to be in.
But, you know I'm a convert to the whole "test, test, test" thing, so my advice remains to take whatever testing they offer, and ask for any other testing that you want that they *don't* naturally offer to you.
Even if a heartbeat is the only thing that will ultimately satisfy you, seeing a sac is really nice. And in your case, with your higher betas, it might be nice to find out if there's more than one. That being said, you are right that NOTHING trumps the heartbeat. I get to see on Tuesday, and I have spent the last week and a half freaking out waiting. So I guess there's that to consider as well.
Regardless, you appear to be handling your wait with much more patience and grace than I did mine. So pat yourself on the back for remaining sane!
Hugs and prayers! All the little signs are good signs!
just chiming in that you continue to be in my thoughts. keep us posted, ok?
Mo
Thinking of you! Hope you are hanging in there! Hugs!
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